School work and stubborn flu is taking a toll on me. The amount of stress is making me feel headache these few days. The flu lowered my threshold for stress more than i thought. It made me feel so retarded during Japanese Oral test today. I don't want to replay the scene again. Thinking back, i don't know what the heck I was saying then.

Taking an intensive module for a breadth on top of 5 core modules is so much harder than i thought. Peers around me are feeling stress alright, but they don't understand the amount of time I need to study. The fact is that i need to spend like at least 15 hours more a week than most people to study because of Japanese language which have homework and like 2 quizzes a week? How can I afford to attend all the lectures which I have no idea what's going on half the time? I could spend this time studying on my own and understand better with shorter amount of time!

I really look forward to the coming holiday in less than 3 weeks time but at the same time, I don't want exam to come so soon! I guess i have to bite the bullet and use the bullet to kill my flu!

でも、毎日リムさは私の傍にいますから、今は以前より生活に嬉しいです。