Letter to Soon Huat

Dear SeaWaLK,

I know you are feeling depressed lately. You feel that you are a total failure. You screwed your life. In work, you are so careless that you wasted all your 3 weeks of hard work. You are feeling very guilty for wasting your professor's time. He spent several hours per day to help you analyse the sample under TEM only to find that the results are not reproducible. You wondered why. Is it because of wrong pH measurement? or...? Then at last, you found out that it's because of wrong usage of micro-pipette. You are deverstated. You just had a round from professor that morning and now you still have to break this news to him. You feel guilty, failure, worhtless, hopeless, and helpless. No one can help you.

In relationship, you are also a failure. You failed to be a great friend to people around you. You failed to keep constant contact with your secondary school friends, until they initiated. In love, you feel so insecure. You wonder whether the love you give is worthwhile because you don't see any appreciation in return. You are confuse, insecure, depressed, sad, and lost.

Although so many unfortunate things happen, i will always be by your side. I will be the one to see you pull through all this obstacles. Do not give up, prove to me and show the world what even if they don't care or don't love you, you can still stand tall. I appreciate you even if nobody does. Many people take things for granted, but i don't.

Don't give up. For you don't exist, i don't.

Love,
Hamster